The Girls

Gabby has been diagnosed with Asthma...we have to give her 2 breathing treatments a day, but it has made a big difference with that horrible asthma cough she was having.
She's in kinderkid this year and is loving it. She has a great teacher and is bringing her learning home with her

Olivia is doing well...I think she might be past due for another echocardiogram to check her heart condition...I can't remember when she went last....life is just passing me by. She just recently had her head split open...her forehead, when Gabby slammed her bedroom door into it. It was glued back together at Urgent Care, but then the next night while on the road, we were instructed to take her to the nearest ER because she wouldn't stop throwing up. She seems fine now, though.

Savannah is a little monkey. She somehow got a good sized abrasion on the side of her chin, and kept picking at it and making it bleed. I hope it heals soon. They sure do keep me busy

After baths tonight, they were all together, I think in gabby's room, just giggling away....now THAT is the joy of having sisters!

Ugh!

I have a deep need to escape. I need a fresh start, I need out of here. Things have gotten out of hand. I need my own place where the only messes are the ones that I make or allow...where most of the whining stops. Where I can have nice things and keep things nice.

Worship Time

This YouTube Video was sent to me and it just really struck me in a state of worship. I wanted to share. I hope it touches your soul, too.


Hugs,
Julie

Wow! It's really been a long time!

Wow! I really can't believe that I haven't posted since April! I knew it had been a while, but didn't realize it had been that long. I guess I have had a lot happen since then. Not good stuff, either.

Social Security Disability finally denied my claim. It was no surprise, because they deny 70% of the people who file the first time. I need to get off my keester and file an appeal.

My twinsters turned two! They continue to amaze me every day. Their language has really exploded and it's really neat to be able to carry on a conversation with them now. I was watching them tonight and felt a twinge of jealousy. They are so good to each other, so caring, giving and just really enjoy each other. Not only have I always wanted a sister, but I have always wanted a best friend. No, they don't always get along perfectly, they do have their squabbles, but they never last, they work it out, just like friends, and sisters should. The twin bond is one of the neatest things I have ever witnessed. I wish everyone could have a set of twins.

Gabby starts school in 2 days, Kinderkid. She will be going to the afternoon session. I pray for her teacher and that she will be a good teacher for Gabby. With Gabby not liking pre-school last year, that was really hard on this mom's heart. I do hope that she loves school and loves her teacher this year and that her teacher knows how to deal with smart, yet immature and overly energetic children like my Gabriella Pearl.

I continue to struggle in my day-to-day life. I cannot function like I used to, or most of the rest of the population. I have felt like I am drowning. I am back in counseling. I need help dealing with the "new" me. I can never be the "old" me again. I really want to just be able to get up, shower, and do whatever I want to do in a day. The fact is, somedays, just getting out of bed takes all I have. And some days, I can't even get out of bed. Oh how you don't fully appreciate your health until it's gone.

I have learned a few things that I want in life....snuggling! Lots and lots of snuggling! and affection! Those are things I truly crave. And to be wanted, needed and desired. It seems like for me, though, that is asking too much.

Well, I just wanted to post. Probably my very small audiance is gone, since I haven't posted in 4 months. Hopefully I'll get better again.

"All you have to do, is run to Him...."

Went to the park

Today, I actually got the kids out of the house, by myself! That is a feat in itself. It seems to take a million years to get 3 kids in the van and buckled in. I drove them to the park. We could have walked if I was stronger, but there's no way I could these days. Gabby was kind of scared of the playground equipment. It was older and wood and when I got up on it once, it was hard to keep my footing and not have my ankles turn. The twins just kind of walked around. We were going to leave, but we ran into my friend, Chandra's kids and grandparents, so the kids followed them back to the playground. I thought maybe Drew and Reagan would give her some confidence to play on the equipment. She was still afraid to go down the slide and ended up going down on Reagan's lap while holding Drew's hand.

I feel so bad for the kids sometimes. The twins never get out of the house. They just see the four walls of our home, and that's about it. I am hoping this summer that we can have some stuff outside that they like to do and I can go sit out there with them. The fresh air and sunshine will be good for me, and the kids need to get out, too. I am hoping that today didn't wipe me out for the rest of the week.

I took my camera with me, but ended up forgetting it in the van...so, I don't have any pictures to share.

This might be a boring read, but it sure was a nice and fun day. It brings me delight to do fun things with my kids.

What do I want to write about....

What do I want to write about? Hmmm....

Yesterday was really a decent day! Praise God! There were times of the day where I felt half normal, whatever that is! Yes, I did get up for the remainder of the day at my usual 3 pm, but I needed to get to A-town to get 5 of my prescriptions because I was going to be out today.

My friend, Chandra, was going to town, anyway, so I asked her if I could tag along and stop by the pharmacy to get them. If you haven't been around me, you wouldn't know that just to shower, put clothes on and a ride in the car, even just to pick up one thing, would totally exhaust me. Yesterday I was able to do it, and I felt pretty good. This was the first day like that in a very very long time. In fact, it's been so long that I can't even remember when.

Does that mean that every day from this point on is going to be like that? No, most probably not, but I do cherish and treasure the good days and try to fully enjoy them. I do have to make sure that I don't overdo it, though, because then I will crash and be physically down and in pain for days or weeks. I do hope it's not so long for the next good day like that to happen.

Today is OK. The pain is there, but not horrendous. When you have dealt with it this long, it just becomes part of your life. My chest does feel like someone is giving me a bear hug. My help tonight, Ginger, called and one of her friends really needed her help with something tonight so she wondered if I could get by without her. I told her I would try. I am feeding the twins stuff for dinner that aren't too messy, so hopefully they can forgo their baths. Here, I will show you why they usually need a bath after supper every night. This was taken after one of those times where I got their supper, then had to disappear into the bathroom for a few minutes (everyone has to go sometimes :o)
Do you like how it makes her eyebrows appear to come to a V in the middle of her forehead?

My oldest is supposed to be cleaning her room, getting her jammies on and washing her hands so she can eat supper. It's just the kids and I for supper, so I just feed the kids and eat whatever, whenever. I usually don't eat until the kids are in bed when it's just me. It's just easier that way. On the nights I have help, I can usually eat the same time as the kids.

Fred works nights, so he is sleeping, and even on his odd nights off, he is not up in time for supper, so then we eat after the kids go to bed.

It's pretty gloomy looking outside. I can't wait for the grass to green up. I think when it is consistently warmer, things are blooming and having some nice sunny days will really perk us all up. I look forward to the times where we can go outside after nap time and play. I am hoping to get one of those pools with the inflatable rings that stay up when you put water in them that have the filter. I do think it would give us something to do after nap time to get us all outside, get some fresh air and let the kids have fun. The water will be good for me, as when I am in deeper water it takes the weight of the world off my aching body, so then I don't hurt as bad. I would LOVE a hot tub, and really think it would benefit me the most, but funds keep us from being able to get one. If I could sit in that every night before bed, I am sure I would be able to sleep much better and more comfortably, then be able to do a little more in the daytime.

All I know is that God has always supplied all of our needs. If I really would benefit from these things, then they will be provided, someway, somehow.

signing off for today and trying to dance.....Me

Puttin' on my Big Girl Panties and Dealing with it.

You know, my illnesses have tried to get the best of me. Yes, they do slow me down. Yes, they do keep me from going anywhere. But, tonight, I've just decided to put on my Big Girl Panties and Deal with it. (with the Lord's help, of course.)

It is such a breath of fresh air to have my spirits lifted and my attitude changed. It's been a year now since I really got sick. It was a year ago when my parents had to take my 3 kids, 4, 9 months and 9 months, and keep them for 2.5 months while I was in and out of the hospital, eventually ending up having open heart surgery.

I am back to me, seeing all the blessings in my life instead of letting the dumb illnesses take over. Boy have they been heavy weights, but Jesus died on the Cross for all of that...for me. It's so hard to grasp that someone went through all that for me! and for you, and you and you, too!

I praise you Lord, give you ALL the Glory, Jesus. Thank you for sparing my life when medically I should not be here. Thank you for giving me some more time on this earth to spend with the precious gifts you gave me, my blessed husband and 3 little girls. Thank you for the people who have come in my home to help, and for all the meals provided. Bless each and every one of them. Lord, I pray that your Light and Love shine in my life to reach others. Let them not see me, let them see You.

Lord, use me in whatever you have in store for my life. Whatever I am supposed to be doing or learning in all this, I open my heart to You, to fulfill whatever needs done.

I'm NOT putting on my Big Girl Panties...that would mean that I am trying to do it myself. I am handing it over to the Lord and trusting that He will take care of me. It is not mine to deal with any longer. I can't do it myself, only with the Lord walking beside me, all the way.

Is the Lord walking beside you in this life? Where would He lead you if you let him take the lead? Would you dance with Him and follow His lead? It can be so beautiful! Can't you see yourself dancing with Jesus in the sand? A beautiful dance with Him leading and taking you to see that beautiful sunset that He has created? He has so much in store for us. We might be taken through a path of weeds to get to that one beautiful spot that He has prepared for us. All we have to do is have faith and trust in Him. His will, not ours.

Lord, please align my will with Yours. Help me to hand myself totally over to You, so you can lead the dance.

I hope you'll dance, too!

Ramblings from the inner recesses of my mind

Here's to another night with sleep problems. Yahoo!

Talked to the parentage yesterday. They will be headed back up north on Wednesday. Will spend next weekend with my brother, then come home on Monday, their 46th wedding anniversary. I think I sort of miss them. I am not so anxious to see them myself, but am very anxious for them to see the kids. I wonder if the twins will make up to dad right away or if it will take time for them to warm back up to him.

I have decided to work hard to see the bright side of life, to find joy in everything. The joy of the Lord is my strength. Praising God has been something that is lacking in my life and I know I would be a happier person and more fun to be around if I start having that joy back in my life.

Open the eyes of my heart, Lord.
Open the eyes of my heart.
I want to see You.
I want to see You.

See You High and lifted up
shining in the light of Your glory
Pour out your power and love
as we sing Holy, Holy, Holy

Holy, Holy, Holy
Holy, Holy, Holy
Holy, Holy, Holy
I want to see You.

Just singing this song brings peace to my soul.
I really need to try harder to raise my children up in the way they should go, so that when they are older, they shall not part from it. We need to start praising Jesus together, as a family.

I am so very blessed to have a husband who loves me, no matter what. He has shown that to me over and over and over. He is such a good daddy to our 3 beautiful daughters. How blessed I am to have such a wonderful family.

Sucking Binkies with my sweet Savannah Rose

Tonight, on my way to bed, I checked on the girls, as I always do. I always re-tuck them in and make sure Savannah's Binkies are where she can find them if she wakes up and wants them.

Tonight, Savannah was awake when I went in her and Olivia's room. I tucked Olivia back in, because she wasn't covered up at all. Then I laid Savannah back down and covered her back up. I laid my head on her pillow as I stood beside her bed. She put her 2nd Binkie in my mouth (the 1st Binkie was in her own mouth.) Then, after a short time, she took the Binkie out of my mouth and switched Binkies with me. It was so sweet and touching. Never in my life would I imagine that sucking Binkies with my sweet Savannah Rose would be the most favorite way to end my day. What a sweet little girl to share her Binkies with mommy.

Flatulence can be funny

If you don't think flatulence can be funny or are offended, you might not to watch this video. I laughed so hard I cried. It's a good thing I just went to the bathroom or I might have peed myself! Enjoy! (as a disclaimer, you might want to use the bathroom first - for those of you who "leak")

Any of you have a child that doesn't like pre-school??

G, my pre-schooler, keeps telling me she doesn't like school. She tells me that at bedtime, she tells me in the morning and says she wants to stay home. I can't get anything else out of her, except that Samuel is not a nice boy. I do know he punched her in the face one time. That was a long time ago. The teacher told me that Samuel and G aren't allowed by each other anymore. I guess he really gives her a rough time. I found out from my friend, Chauncey tonight that her son also has had trouble with this Samuel and that Samuel and hit her son quite a few times. The notes in her son's folder say that Samuel got set in a time out. Doesn't sound like it's working.

What do you do when your child tells you they don't like school when they always did before? It sure makes me wonder what's going on there. I talked to her teach a couple weeks ago and G had been misbehaving and her teacher said she was was on her quite a bit. But the notes lately have been that G has had good days. Maybe it's just a stage. She also went to Chauncey's house to play after school. She told me she didn't like that or riding the bus, either, when I know she did.

OH! Question for all you bloggers out there! I would like to add a thing to my blog where people can subscribe to it. Can anyone tell me how to do that? I couldn't figure it out. Is it something you have to pay to be able to do? I went to feedburner, but still couldn't figure out how to do it. If anyone could help, I would be very appreciative.

If anyone checks this regularly, sorry I haven't posted in a couple days. I am not feeling the greatest. I didn't really have anything to say tonight, but wrote anyway. Wish I could think of something funny, but I am just feeling really weird.

Good night!

Has the only person you've ever fooled been yourself?

A comment on the last post made me realize that I am depressed. It wasn't bad at all, just made me examine myself. I have battled and fought it. I guess the only person I fooled was myself. I didn't want to admit it and have it take hold. I guess I have to work through it. How can you add funny to depression? I honestly want to, but not sure if I have any funny in me tonight. I guess that is just a stage of life with chronic illness. So, sorry to be a bummer and a boring post, but I guess that's how it goes tonight.

Autumn is only lightly snoring so far tonight. I haven't had to nudge her, YET! So, I think I will just curl up with my poodles and call it a night.

It's "A Night!"

More ponderings from my twisted mind tonight

I have to ask....did you listen to my yodel?

I ask because I am wondering if ANYONE listened to my yodel

and if I totally stink in yodeling so far

and if I just "think" I can sing, but I really can't

and if anyone is even paying attention!

and how many times I have just sat here while I really need to pee, I mean use the restroom.

and if this was an old trait that I've always had, or a new one that has sprouted, and if that is the case, how long ago did it sprout and why

and also, why am I still sitting here when I should really be in bed

and why is blogging so addictive

and why are reading other peoples blogs addictive

and are the above two questions really the same thing

and again, why am I sitting here when I have to be up early in the morning and I should really go hop in the shower

and oh, I could really use some chocolate right now. I would say pizza, but I already had pizza tonight. those of you that know me know that I could go on about pizza for days, and sometimes I do. sometimes you are tired of pizza when you have not even had pizza because I have talked about, dreamed about and drooled over pizza so much.

did I say I have to use the potty? I did? so what are we still doing here, then?

I am a comment junkie, but yet have few comments

Ok, so I guess I have gotten into this blog thing a little more than I thought I would. I have really enjoyed doing it. I also find I keep looking to see if anyone has commented. Ok, so here is a blog roll call....if you are reading this, please click where it says 0 comments at the bottom (unless there are actually more than 0) and just put your name so I know SOMEONE other than ME is reading this. I've even started reading other people's blogs and commenting on their blogs, hoping that they would see my comment, read my blog and comment me back. No such luck. Bummer.

I never knew how much comments would come to mean to me. I also guess it's going to take me a while to become a famous blogger who gets an audience. Maybe I am only funny to me. Maybe no one enjoys my tongue pictures so I scared them all away. Maybe I really don't exist and am really not writing this and only think I am! That must be it! That really has to be it!

So, come on...someone? anyone? Leave me some comment love!

The office change....and my first attempt at yodeling

Ok, so if you haven't figured it out, the office switch is really switching the kid's rooms and the twins got twin beds. (Why do they call them twin beds when there's only one of them, but I had to buy two?)

At nap time it's not always going so well. I don't know if it's because dh is putting them down and I don't think they are quite sleepy enough....I think he just wants to put them down so he can do whatever. And, he's not consistant in getting them to stay in their beds. Today he was watching TV and would only go in there on commercials. Needless to say, they made a mess, and O woke up S. They do really well at bedtime. Once in a while we will need to go back in there, but not usually. I sure can't wait until their furniture gets here. I was told that it should be shipped today or tomorrow. I hope it's true and that they weren't just feeding me a line of bull.

O and S got new shoes. I printed out the sizing chart and measured their little feet. It is so neat to see that their little feet measure the exact same. One foot is a little bigger than the other and it's the same size and same foot as the other twin. I guess that's how it goes for identical twins. Today was nice with beautiful sunshine, so I took the kids outside for a little walk up our street. Of course they found and fell into mud puddles with their new shoes. Oh well, they had to get broke in sometime, huh? Brian got them cleaned off pretty good. It was nice for all of us to get some fresh air.

I got my CD, U2 Can Yodel, today!! I am so excited. I am already learning how to break my voice. I sure hope I can get my girls to yodel with me eventually. Wouldn't that be cool? Finally, a dream I have had for 16 years is coming true! I am finally learning to yodel! I can't believe I'm doing this, but here is my first attempt (first day) at yodeling. You might want earplugs and to make sure your precious crystal isn't right by...Oh, and if you listen to this, you MUST leave a comment so I know you listened to it. So, the next time you see me, if I see you snickering, at least I will know why! ha!


Signing off! - Julie, who is still sort of zombie-like, but not too bad, just a little out of it.

I guess I scared the stinkey waste product out of my friend

Have you ever gotten to ride in the front of an ambulance with the lights and sirens blaring? Have you ever been called by a friend and told that they can't stay awake and they don't know where their kids are? Have you ever been told that you trashed your bathroom, ripped wallpaper off the wall, broke a garbage can, turned on the oven, got some break out on a plate then put the rest of the loaf in the freezer and not remembered any of it?

This describes my day yesterday. I remember very little of it. Most of it was just what people told me. I totally lost a day. I remember getting up in the early afternoon, sitting in the lazy boy, chatting with Erin and Emily for a couple minutes before they left and then waking up this afternoon about 3:30 pm or so. There are a few other vague memories amongst those, but very vague and dream like. I guess I can say it's exciting to be my friend?

When I got up this afternoon, I was so zombie-like. I could speak, but really didn't want to. My eyes wouldn't really go to or do what I wanted them to. They just kind of stared blankly. I feel a little more with it now, but am still kind of out of it.

All the Dr said was that my tests came back ok and to follow up with my cardiologist in 2 days. That place is nuts. All they ever do is take a chest xray, do blood work and an EKG, get the results back and send me home. Umm....I don't think I was there for heart related problems this time. I just couldn't be woke up, I was comatose. All the Dr told Fred was that I needed extra fluids. They didn't even hook me up to the IV at the hospital. What does that have to do with being lethargic? Oh well. I'm still alive and kicking...but not really so much the kicking as that would wear me out. I am sparing some bruises for all the attempts to put in an IV port which they only ended up using to take blood from. My neck and arm ache the worst, but my whole body feels like I pulled muscles.

Just another fun filled day in the life, or not-so-called life, of Julie, who had really thought that her days of ER visits and hospital stays were over.

Yodel-Ay-Ee-Oooo

There is something that I have wanted to learn to do since I was 19. You guessed it! I want to learn to yodel! Why? Well, I just do. My friend, Katy, and I tried to find something to teach me back then with no luck. We weren't on the Internet back then. I did finally order me something. I can't wait to get it. I read that when you are learning to "break" your voice, it's best to do it in private, with no interruptions, (your family will appreciate you for this, also.) So, hopefully some day on here, I can record me yodeling a little ditty and post on here. It may be a while, because I have to learn and practice and get good. It probably won't help that I get out of breath easily.

I am betting that none of you share this desire with me. But, if you do, let me know....come on over, and we can learn to yodel together. At least it will be more fun than listening to my diet Pepsi fizz. Ha!

Just another unknown fact in the land of Julie. I bet you are learning all kinds of things about me!

Gone Crazy. Be back soon

I was visiting a dear friend of mine today. I have to admit that seeing her 4 walls was really a nice break from seeing my 4 walls. It was great seeing her. I have really missed her. Jesse was telling me how in high school her friends were the handicapped one, the town drunks daughter, the fat girl, the promiscuous girl and there was one other. Since we are friends, I asked her what that made me....I have finally figured it out....I am the insane one! Bwah ha ha!

Closing time at the office today went really well. O and S were really tired, so they were ready to end the workday. Break time went well, too! This office switch between the junior partners is really working out well. Now we are just waiting for the rest of the office furniture so O and S can really make themselves at home.

G actually behaved today pretty well. I hope this is a good sign of more to come. The snowbanks have sort of melted and refrozen, so they aren't as big and are hard, so I can't throw her in them any longer (not that I did before, I just wanted to.)

At Jesse's house, I got to hold baby Y. Wow is he sweet! If I would have had my camera, you'd be seeing a pic. He is such a little flirt and very charming. Y and Jesse had to be the highlight of my day. Jesse really seems to get my sense of humor. Wackity yuck, yuck, yuck.

Well, I'm just sitting here listening to my diet pepsi fizz. Isn't that exciting? Now THAT is just how much fun I am. Yippee Yeehaw!

Hey, did any of you used to watch Hee Haw? I used to watch that with my dad every Sunday night while we ate popcorn together. I really miss Hee Haw. I think it's because they had that wacky sense of humor that I love so much. I sure wish they played reruns.

Signing off now...feeling really boring tonight, with not much funny. Take care, and behave yourselves. And if you don't, just post it in my comments! Toodles!

Some say thanks for the smile, other say not at all pleasing to look at

Well, I guess my sense of humor and talents aren't appreciated by all. Oh well, I guess we (what am I saying? do I have multiple personalities here??) can't please everyone. This place is somewhere that I come to have fun and just let my wits flow. I guess those people who find me not pleasing won't look anymore, so just those of you who are enjoying my show will stay. Thanks for your comments, they have meant a lot to me.

The Office switch hasn't gone as well today. O and S, the junior members had a hard time with break time today. It didn't help that G, who has a little more seniority, ran into their office at break time and announced loudly that they were done with their breaks when they really hadn't even started them yet.

I am in the mood for a road trip. Where to? Oh, I'd like to go lots of places. Indy, Chicago, Arkansas, Wisconsin. It's the lack of my body cooperating that is holding me hostage. Darn that body anyway. My spirit is free even if my body isn't.

I guess I don't have anything funny to say today. My website being not pleasing to look at really kind of bummed me out. I know we shouldn't let people affect us that way...maybe I'd better just try to go back to sleepy town. You know, the town where you go to sleep. That wonderful place of slumber where your body recharges and you can have some weird dreams. Just be careful what you eat and what you are listening to...it really does affect your dreams. I can't think of the word because of brain fog, but I'm sure we have all seen the picture of some young student sleeping with a book on their head trying to absorb what was in it while they were sleeping. I truly believe that if we listened to it on tape, while we were sleeping, that it would help us retain it! Hmm....this provides some interesting thought. I think I'd like the bible on tape, therefore I would be more knowledgeable in it. Good thought to end the day with.

Good night!

Tongue tricks and random thoughts

My friends tell me I'm funny. I guess I am a bit whacko. Angie was talking about my tongue picture and that reminded me of one of my talents. Here....let me show you......

Isn't this a cool talent? Anyone else out there have this talent? I'm telling you, my tongue is like a lizard tongue or something. Which reminds me...I do a really good lizard impersonation. Maybe that can be for another day.

Some big things happened in the Fisher Corporation today. The two members with the least seniority traded offices with the person in the middle of seniority. It's a bigger office, but the two newest members have to share the larger office. Break time went really well, and after office closing went pretty well, too. All in all, a good day. Exciting and a little heartbreaking that the two newest members are past their probationary period. I guess we have to start paying benefits now. Wait! We've been paying benefits from the beginning. I guess that's what makes the Fisher Corporation a good place to be.

Oldest daughter still is not wanting to listen, but I only wanted to toss her in a snowbank just once or twice today. So, I guess she is a little better.

I finally found out how to drink that nasty fizzy powder magnesium so that it's bearable. Boil some water in teapot, pour over powder, add pack of Sweet N Low at the same time. As you are watching it foam up to the top of the cup, but in baby gas drops to cut some of the fizz. Run cup to sink to catch overflow of foam (from adding maybe 3/4" of water.) Stir until fizz is gone, wash sticky off cup and chug. It wasn't too bad tonight and it helps right away. I was really hurting from the little I did in the changing of offices.

The poodles are doing good. Here's my favorite one, Special.

Isn't she sweet. I didn't name her, but she sure is a special girl to me. My favorite snuggle bug. My Doodlee Doo.

Ok, signing off for tonight. I'm all out of funny.

The Julemeister

Oh, and Autumn is snoring again. This is a different kind of sound that I can't even describe.

Hmm....what to say.....

Well, today was another day where I felt like throwing my 5-year old dd in a snowbank. She has been so wound up and rowdy, getting in to all kinds of trouble, breaking house rules, leading her twin sisters astray.....ah! She is driving me bonkers! I think I need to send her outside and have her run around the house 5 times....maybe 10! I love that little girl and I have been trying to figure out when her behaviour got so bad. It was sometime this fall. I don't know if it's school, if it's been because she has an ill mother, or what. I just pray that tomorrow will be a better day.

I need to get Autumn, one of the poodles into the vet. When she opens up her mouth, it pollutes the air in the room. It seems like she just had her teeth cleaned not too long ago, but something must be wrong. She used to just give a warning growl to the kids that they were her space, but now she is starting to act like she is going to nip them. I can't have that. I don't want to part with her, so I am thinking of just having all of her remaining teeth removed. I don't think she has all that many left. I can soften her food with water and she can live out the remaining of her late years toothless. That way she can still be here, we won't have to worry about problems with her remaining teeth, and we don't have to worry if she nips at the kids, because she would just gum them.

Fred is a WONDERFUL dad. He works nights and then comes home and works almost another full time job, caring for the kids. He had the night off last night so he got some work done today. I didn't get my naps in today so I am feeling really lousy. I have this magnesium supplement, and it really helps me. I really need to go take it, but I can hardly stand to take it. I need to figure out a way to make it more palatable. It's some powder that fizzes and foams when you add liquid to it. They say to stir the bubbles out and fill up the mug and drink it like a cup of tea. I can't stand to drink that much of it. I really don't like it at all. But, I'm sitting here really hurting tonight, so I know I need to go take it. Boy I hope I can find a way to take it that makes it more palatable.

Autumn, the one with the killer breath is laying next to me snoring up a storm. She is so loud! I am always having to nudge her to get her to stop snoring so I can go to sleep.

Well, I'm signing off....need to motivate myself to go drink that nasty fizzy stuff, and lay down and go to sleepy town.

Me - who's wishing she would have ordered a pizza tonight! It's my absolute favorite thing! and I really really want some!

What's it?

What is it? Heck, I don't know. I don't even know who I am. I know who I used to be, but that is not the me that I am now. Are you following this?

I know that I want to be the me that I know, but I am not. So I guess that means that I should get to know the me that I am now. I'm not so sure I want to know her. She is pretty boring if you ask me. Doesn't go anywhere, doesn't do anything.

Busy...life is so busy. People are so busy. They are so busy that I doubt they even recognize how life goes for someone like me. It must be nice to be able to go do whatever you want, whenever you want. Even something as simple as running to Walmart. I don't have that luxury. I'm really not even sure anyone cares. They are just so busy doing their own thing. People like me aren't in their "plans." They don't have time. I do believe that we have time for what we want to make time for, Amen?

Well, so much for this blog being light-hearted. Guess I am not in the light-hearted mood today.

I guess I'm a blogger

Hmm...I guess I'm a blogger now. Wonder if anyone will read this or not. I think I am sane, but quite frequently, some real zingers come out of my mouth or through my fingers and I don't know where they come from. I am hoping to keep this blog light and funny, and to express that side of me. My true life is pretty boring, so I will try to keep up with the intermusings of my head.

My cousin, Kyle, always tells me that I come up with weird things at weird times. Well, we'll see.

Hey, while I'm thinking about it, do any of you out there have a groove/crack in your tongue? Not sure what I'm talking about? Here, I'll show you...(if I can figure out how to insert pics on this thing.) If you do, let me know.